I have to be proactive. Today is better than yesterday. I’m feeling good, as I did in the beginning of last summer. Everything’s pretty much awesome at this moment. Time to focus on school, time to focus on myself.
Here’s what I have to do today to make myself feel even better:
• Clean up my room + change linens
• Go shopping
• Get rid of my schoolwork
• Light some candles, make myself a cup of tea, tuck myself in bed and watch some TV until I fall asleep
I’m actually really relieved right now. The upcoming week is going to be the best one in a long time.
One thing that’s not so great though, is that I had to submit my iPhone 5 for reparation. The battery was really bad, sometimes my cellphone died at 52%. I’ll get a new iPhone in about two weeks. Meanwhile I have to put up with an old HTC (Android), which is a huge change. Haha! I don’t like Android cellphones at all, they’re confusing me. I miss my iPhone more than anything right now!
I don’t really know what to write, maybe because I’m out of words. I have nothing more to say. I have nothing more to give. I feel like I’ve closed an awesome chapter of my life and now I’m trying to figure out what the next chapter’s climax is going to be. Where will I find myself? Who will I be and with who will I be?
Blogging was more like a hobby before, I didn’t really take it that serious even though it might have seemed so. I have to be honest with you… The reason why I’m not posting as much posts here as before is because I’ve got myself a life. Haha! I actually did. Seriously, I don’t want to tell you about my daily goings-on anymore. I don’t want to be that boring blogger who puts out: “Today I’ve done this, this, and that.” In what kind of way is that information beneficial for you? For your stalking maybe? I don’t want that. I take my blog more serious now because I don’t want to put anymore shit out there about my boring days when I’m home studying, at the gym, at school. Who cares? I don’t even feel like I have any desire to tell you that. I don’t have any time for it either. If you’re wondering what’s going on in my life, why don’t you just ask me? From now I will only post something when I feel like I have something special to tell you, something about my thoughts and feelings for something. You already know I’m working out a lot so there’s no need to tell you more about it. You know I’m studying and hanging out with my friends. Exactly what kind of exercises I do isn’t relevant. Neither is what kind of subject I’m studying or what me and my friends are doing when we’re hanging out. All we do is to talk about sex anyway so now you know. Haha, no but that’s pretty much the main topic of our conversations unfortunately.
I’ve met a kind man who I’ve fallen in love with. I’m happy with him and I hope everything works out well. I don’t want to disclose his name yet because I don’t find it necessary. I don’t want this to be ruined and if it happens to not turn out the way I hope it does… then I just don’t want people to know that we ever had something going on between us. We’ll see what happens. Take care. XOXO
Summary of what I’ve done lately:
- Celebrated Halloween, it sucked.
- Got tired of drinking.
- Got back to the gym.
- Fell in love.
- Realized that I’ve improved my song writing skills.
- Realized that it feels quite okay to be back in school after this holiday.
- Speaking of holiday, I went to Stockholm last Tuesday – Wednesday with a friend.
- I also went to Sala for two minutes, stepped into a “party”, laughed and jumped right back into my car again.
- Been busy with life.
- Got tired of life.
- Started to not care as much as before.
- Felt good again.
I know this is such a boring update, but I’m pretty bored myself so that will be my excuse this time. I’ll update with something funnier some other time… In about two weeks maybe? No, but we’ll see when I feel like sharing something special with you.